Sunday, May 20, 2007

these days.. i keep reminiscing bout wat happened for the past 4 and a half months.. i regret not taking things seriously and took things for granted..

you have no idea how much i would give to take everything back.. i could've been a different person..

things would've worked out..

not that it wasnt good.. but it could've been better..

i didnt really write much bout the breakup.. cos it didnt really had a great impact on me.. i dun even miss him..

we broke up after being together for almost 4 years on the 2nd day of this year.. i initiated it.. i was mad cos of the sucky christmas and new year's that i had and other reasons too..

we broke up once in nov last yr.. got back togther a week after.. and regretted it the next day.. so my attitude changed.. we quarreled ALOT.

we're still frens now.. but theres no way we're gonna get back together.. its different now.. so none of my posts are about him..

back to the past few months..

i went through ALOT. surgery and stuff.. dun wanna talk about it..

its funny how things can happen over a short period of time.. like how u think ur life is perfect and the next thing u noe u're having the worst time of your life..

i have no idea wats the point of writing this post.. all i noe is that i cant sleep...

all in all.. i did things im not really proud of for the past few months.. lets just hope things'll change..

like a fren once said, "dont. you'll just end up feeling lousy bout urself."

and it took me 3 months to realise.

i may not be the happiest person right now but im definitely content with wat i have now..

maybe the best thing to do is to stop trying to figure out whr u're gg and just enjoy whr u're at.

not the first; not the last; & probably not the best 4:36:00 AM